Day 7

Soo, I didn't update was becuase I was hanging out with Halli Freaking Neufeld yesterday!
Ohh my gosh, it was the funnest sleepover ever.
Here's a list :)

• Made AWESOME spray paint shirts
• Watched Youtube videos
• Watched Grease 2
• Had some super good pizza
• Put on fun high heels. boas, scarves, and crazy make up and made a dance video to "What Girls Do"
• My bathroom door broke 
• Watched Tin man
• Skyped with Jordan
• Made a 10 Things We Hate About Jordan video
• Editted the video
• Yelled at my computer because it wouldn't upload it
• Made a dance video to "Baby" remix-"Bella"
• Posted on Youtube
• Got 28 views in thirty minutes!
• Just danced around to 90s music
• Continuously made strawberry orange banana crystal light juice
• Put on some red lipstick
• Made a 10 Tips For Guys on Impressing a Girl
• Went to sleep at 5:30
• Woke up at 8
• I slept until noon

"Shingles?....Are they black?..They should be red...You live in the middle of nowhere, no one is going to see them!.."-Me
"They aren't contagious..My brother had them.."-Halli
"Halli, we're talking about ROOF shingles."-Me

"IDK LOL That's so funny. ROFL"-'Jordan'
"Really?! Who says that?? IF you're going to say 'ROFL', you better be on the ground turning over like a freaking sardine!"-Me

(In a deep monotone voice) "Bella, Bella, Bella"

"I feel sexy with this boa"-Halli

And that's all I can think of right now. Soo, yesterday was an awesome day! (:

Today, is a lazy day. I need to do some homework but that's all really.

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Day 5

Today was sooo amazing!

In school alone-I got trig done, did very well on my vocab test and set up a paper in Journalism!
After school, Halli and I chilled. Let me just saw, Halli is soooo freaking awesome. Like..a lot of my friends are cool to talk to but Halli and I have those girl talks like outta movies and stuff. I dunno, it's just fun. (:
After that, Chancie and Amber and Lane and I went to Lawton to eat at Kobe's. Kobe is this japanese restaurant. I wasn't too sure about it, but it ended up being super good!
When we got seated, the people across from us had already started and their chef was doing the fancy knife trick and dropped it in a lady's soup which spilled all over her. He didn't really talk much after that.
Our chef was really good. It was soo fascinating. My face got super hot when the fire went up though. Lol. Oh, oh! He made a bit smiley face outta the rice. (:
The food was freaking fantastic. And afterwards, I had squid and sushi for the first time.
The squid was sooo weird. I'm glad I tried it, but never again. EVER.
Sushi was eh..I could only have one or two.
Afterwards we decided to go to the....FAIR!!! (((((:
Oh boy, do I love the fair! It's just such a happy place!! I didn't have any money so Chancie bought my tickets for one ride.
Now, there is only one ride I wanted to read. One and only one...

  

The Ferris Wheel

 

I absolutely love the view at the top! And I think it's fun. Well we got to ride for free!
So we rode the Blizzard afterward which is this rollercoaster ish thing that goes in a circle. It was bad cause we all had to pee and there were bumps everywhere. But it ended okay. lol.
Now I am home and completely exhausted. Can't wait to see what happens tomorrow!
P.S.-There was guy in Lawton riding his bike down the middle of the highway!!

A-OKAY DAY

Day 4

Take this sinking boat and point it home..

A number of things happened today..

1. Officially became senior class secretary
2. lost "the game" about four times
3. Woke up in a good mood
4. got wayy confused in Trig.
5. started stressing about AP English
6. finished the story in Journalism
7. ..danced with Tyler in Journalism
8. remembered my "8th grade arrest"
9. circle games in drama
10. realized I absolutely love spanish class
11. worked till five
12. play practice till seven
13. FINALLY got to hang out with my besttt friend
14. learned so legit facts! (:
15. had a sonic blast for the first time allll year
16. blogged

Oh yeah..definitely a good day!
I did drink a coke today though..I'll get started on that tomorrow. Along with the whole "wii fit" thing.

I'm really bad about this whole "letting things go"..thing. I don't like it. One bit.
But...it's going to have to happen..

Well, Imma go study for vocab so I don't completely fail English.

Geeez..Bah!

Day 3

Where are you? And I'm so sorry.

The past few nights I've gone to bed before midnight and I feel like I've missed sooo much! I know I haven't but it seems that way.
This is going to be a short blog because I have nooo idea what to talk about.
So bye.

P.S.- I look AWESOME today.

Day 2

And so there's a change in your emotions

So today we took our senior panel pictures! Unfortunately, they didn't have yellow. :/ But I chose white and royal blue.
At one point, we all took a group shot and then watched people play paintball..kinda. It was more of a duel. Two people would stand back to back, count to three and then shoot. Each person had three shots. The winner went to the next bracket until the end.
Hayley and Brian were the last two. The rules were, you couldn't move from you place and you had unlimited amo. First person to quit, loses.
Hayley won. Freaking legit! (:
But some of the wounds were brutal!

When it hit him, it was just the pink paint. But this is what it looked like after he wiped off the paint. It was bleed and bah!

We go to go home thirty minutes early which is nice. Well..I went to work. But I got to come home earlier!

Play practice was tonight and it went really well. I'm soooo excited for the play. (:

My goal is to stop drinking soda. I've done it before. It is just sooo hard to do!

Ah well..time to do trig.

Day 1

I wish I could go back to the days were guys were gentlemen and girls wore casual dresses.
Or back in Sweeney Todd times where guys were top hats and women wore..well..dresses.
Sure dresses aren't always the most comfortable, but I like them the best.
Maybe I'm crazy.
I am so scared about the play tomorrow. Well..play rehearsel. And work. And senior pictures.
It's going to be a busy day. :/

I LOVE THIS PROM DRESS.

Day 0

So, I absolutely love the show Huge. If you don't know it, it's about a group of teens that go to this fat camp (Camp Victory)
And well, first off..

Remember her? Nikki Blonsky from Hairspray..

Well..

Surprise! :)

I was soo excited when I found out she'd be the lead in Huge.

So anyway, There are eight main campers.

• Amber
• Will
• Trent
• Ian
• Alistar
• George
• Chloe
• Becca

Before anything else, would you like to hear all the connections? Well here we go. Will is friends with Becca. Even though she doesn't admit it, Will likes Ian. But Ian likes Amber. BUT Amber is like..in love with George. The only problem is that George is one of the counselors. Anyhow..Amber and Chloe are friends. Chloe is like.."dating" Trent. Trent is kinda friends with Alistar is is Chloe's twin but Chloe is too ashamed to tell anyone. Oh, and Alistar likes Trent.
Yeahh, crazy stuff.

Every week I watch this show and every week I think.."Mann, I really wanna go there." Cause I do.
I wanna lose weight so bad but the problem is that I'm far too lazy to do anything. I know that shouldn't be an excuse and "if I really wanted to lose weight I would"
But the truth is that sometimes, I'm scared what will happen if I lose it? What if I'm turn into someone who is totally awful? I mean, I don't think I would. But there is always a chance.
I would totally go to the camp but my only other problem is that I completely love my summer.
Ohhh well. Who knows.
We got the Wii fit so maybe that'll help. It's totally fun. (:

This is the story of a girl

It's only been a week of school and I am EXHAUSTED!
It didn't help that I had a crappy week outside of school and didn't make it to sleep until after one A.M.
It was soo good to sleep in this morning and then go to work at 10.
Oh my goodness, the cutest little boy came into the library today! He was around three and he just LOVED books. He just kept talking talking and he came up to me and said..
"You should read to me. Follow me."
He grabbed his load of books (about 10 Dr. Suess ones) and walked over to the couch.
So, naturally, I sat with him and looked through the books until he and his mom left.
I can not WAIT to be a kindergarten teacher. They're just so darn cute! And are willing to learn. Well..most the time. Hah.

Oh, and on the way back from Bray, this little guy hopped on the windshield for a joy ride.

He was the coolest looking grasshopper I had ever seen! I kinda wanted to keep him, but he hopped off while we were still driving.

As I drove, I began to wonder if I had taken him away form a family..or if it's a she, from her kids. Mom said that it would just make a  new one here but it still made me sad..it's hopping on a train and not knowing where you've stopped with no way of getting directions.

But I figure, a beautiful little thing like that should have problems finding a new significant other!

Well, that's all for now.

Tooda-loo! :)

P.S. -I'm in the play!

Currently watching: Alice

You see, there's this guy.....

I question myself a lot.
I doubt myself a lot.
All the risks I've taken have ended badly.
I only have one friend I trust 100%.
Even though my family is crazy, I love them.
I believe in love with all my heart.
I can't express how I feel.
I miss being able to write.
I need inpsiration.
I wish I knew what people thought of me.
I love God.
I struggle with my faith sometimes.
I don't know who I am anymore.
I am absolutley terrified to graduate.
I feel like she is better than me.
I wish I could be a better person.
I love working with kids.
I wish I could go to Oz.
I am almost to the point of giving up on relationships.
I love looking at the stars.
I wish it were easier to talk to people.
I love M.O.S.T.
I have a zebra in my living room.
My favorite color is yellow.
I am a senior.
I have been to three different countries.
I want to be fluent in spanish.
I have never been kissed.
I have never completely seen the movie "never been kissed".
My favorite movie is Fried Green Tomatos.
I make up random "facts".
I want to see a musical on Broadway.
I want to go on a road trip to Canda.
The only thing on my bucklist that I really, truly plan on doing is visiting Rome and doing more mission trips.
I am a pretty good student but it takes me a while to get stuff.
I love literature.
I want to be a kindergarten teacher.
My best friend is moving in a week.
I love listening to music.
I don't understand myself 87% of the time.
I wish my brother and his family lived closer.
I have a hard time remember childhood memories.
I cut my arm open on a hutch when I was 3 from running in the house.
I take my feather pictures next Tuesday.
I have never been on a rollercoaster.
My favorite carnival ride is The Sizzler.
I am always happy when I go to the fair.
I have never seen or read Gone With The Wind, however I own the sequel.
I love classical books.
I collect Wizard of Oz books--I own close to twelve and counting.
I plan on having a bright yellow dress for prom this year.
I want a boyfriend.
I love to dance and sing even though I am not very good at either.
I want a pet duck.
I used to have hermit crabs but they died.
I text a lot.
I wish I could draw.
I like to draw robots.
I like doing math but I rarely get the answer correct.
I can name all my teachers since Pre-K.
I have lived in the same town since I was born.
I have lived in the same house since I was born.
I work at the library.
I am in the school play.
I was a state champion in 2008.
I am not really sure when this list will end.
My theme song is "It happens"-sugarland.
One of my favorite songs is "True Love"-Phil Wickham.
I like singers like Miranda Cosgrove, Demi Lavoto, and Beyonce.
I have a wall in my room that all my friends write on.
I love writing in purple ink.
I have never been to Disneyworld/land.
I went to Seaworld but I didn't really like it.
I want to visit Minnesota.
I could go on, but I'm done for now.

My first unlucky friday the 13th

current song- "Broadway" by The Goo Goo Dolls


...Today has been awful. I blame the superstition. It wasn't so bad until..well, I woke up. It has all just been building up.
I don't really even feel like writing..
Why can't..why can't it just work?

Summerrrr.

It hasn't even been a full week of summer yet and I'm already exhausted!
First, Rylie and Bre came over and we had a birthday slumber party for Rylie. I attempted to put candles in a brownie...but it didn't work out.
The next day I started babysittng. I'm sooo tired but it's great money. Ecuador is in 11 days and I'm soo excited!! :]
Uhh, I gots to go clean.
Update laterrr.
-Em

Wrong baby wrong.

Today-I was a model.
That's right, I put on my prettiest dress and some red lipstick and struck a pose. :]
Toni Hopper was in charge of a photography retreat and asked Erica to invite some friends and model for them.
At first I was a bit nervous but we all get used to each other and ended having a bunch of fun  with plenty of laughs. I can NOT wait to see how the pictures look in the end.
It was Erica, Rayne, Tyler, Chis and me..fun group. Lol.
Gots to go now, but I'll upload some pictures later.

Helloooo senior year!

Enrollment is today! Today! TODAY! :]]]]
I'm going to be a senior and it's the craziest thing ever. One year and then I'm off to college to begin my life. Not that I haven't already begun it. Everyone says that , "My life begins after high school" but maybe we're looking at it wrong. If we just let these days fly by what will we have to look back on? If you think about, youth is the time we reconcile on. Adults think back to their teen years and wish to relive them. What have they done so long that they need a second chance? I think we need to take risks now...don't necessarily go cliff diving or anything like that--but live and love and never forget. If we forget, then we have wasted our life. Even the bad memories need to be remember because those are the ones that made us stronger.
Speaking of memories, I was cleaning out the VHS drawer the other day. I never realized how many home movies we have! They all end when I was about six (I have no idea why) but I love watching them. Now, I must admit-I was freaking adorable as a child. I watched one where it was me and my cousins, Sarah and Dylan. I had forgot about his rat tail..lol. We were at my grandma's house and we were playing with the toy cars (they were legit). It's funny to look back and realize how different everything has become. Back then everything was so simple, life had worries but mommy and daddy were there to protect us and help. I want to know where that transition is? What age are we suppose to "know" how to handle things...and at that point, how do we show it to the youngsters.
It was weird watching the video because the next clips were of my third birthday and Christmas. Mom, Dad, Holly, Justin, Mammaw, Pappaw, Jojo, and Aunt Emily were there. I realized how empty holidays are now. Of my family members that were there, only five are here to wish me happy birthday or open presents at Christmas. It seems as if my life is partially empty after they left.
After Pappaw died, I never had time to heal before Dad...sometimes things are too deep to scar over-they just never heal.
It's been difficult going through high school without them. Dad was the genius in the family and it would've been great to have his help in my classes. And just the advice I never got from him. You know my brother and sister were out of school by the time he left. They learned all they could from him but I was just beginning.
Since then I've latched onto people, in a sense. I try and surround myself with as many friends as I can even though I know they may as well hurt me in the end. But thats life, huh? We're always hurt by the ones we love.
This is why I'm ready for college. A new beginning. I know I still have over a year till then but it's coming up and I'm ready. Even when we "have a new beginning", we still have old ties and such when we stay were we are. I love this town but I need to get out.
This summer is going to be amazing and I'm going to get all I can out of next year but I know I'm getting my "new beginning" and I'm ready for it.

TIme is flying by...

So, everything is crazy right now.
I'm ready for summer and senior year to start. At this point, school work isn't making sense. I totally do not want to work this week cause Pam will be gone which means-no dancing, talking or having fun. Fan-friggin-tastic.
Mission trip is in a month and I'm so excited. It's weird to imagine that I'll be there spreading God's word in such a short amount of time.
Hi, so can I please say how much I love love love my new bike. It's total 50's style. The tires are flat but those should be up and working soon.
My room is finally coming back together and I'm so so happy. I walk in it now and feel at home. My favorite posters are back on the wall and I've unpacked my scarves. I know that those "totally aren't in for summer", but I don't care--I have that covered. I have my winter scarves and summer scarves. I've got some that I'm totally using like in the 50's.

Here's a picture from http://www.flickr.com/photos/goldminetrashvintage/4399679431/
I would wear dresses like this too. I have to find one though. If you happen to come across one suitable for me, lemme know. Orrrr get it for my birthday [August 10th] :)
I think I'll wear one tomorrow and my legit glasses.
Now I'm excited.

Beauty&Peace.
-SillySilly

And the clock keeps ticking.

Hellooo dear reader!
-Long time no update, I know. But life has been hectic lately. Shall we begin?

[1.] I have a mission trip coming up this summer. I am soo pumped about it. I've always wanted to go on one but I never feel like God really wanted me to until now. It's definitely going to be a trip that will affect my life. It's stressing me out though...I know God will provide if I am meant to go, so I just need to..breathe.
[2.] Mammaw went to the hospital yesterday. She's been sick all week and the doctors said she has pneumonia. That was the topping to my awful day yesterday.
[3.] Well..I can't really explain three except that--life doesn't always go the way we plan. Things change, people come and go, and it's out of our control.
[4.] Regionalsssss!! It's this weekend and I'm soo excited! :]]
[5.] Did you know you can make a smiley with a mustache? :{D Teehee. :)
[6.] My room is soo dirty. I really should've cleaned it over break, but I was farrr too busy. And by busy, I mean I was hanging out with friends and laying on the couch staring at the tv. Either way, it did not get done.
I really need to get rid of things. It's just...there. Especially stuff in my closet. I don't even use half of it.

Well, that's about it.
-Emmm♪

I'm just sitting here..

and I don't know what to paint. Any suggestions?
I'm terribly sorry that I haven't actually updated in a long while but a real blog will come soon. However, for the time being, I just need suggestions on what to paint.
Kthanxbye. :0

Crazier-Crazier

www.formspring.me/sillysillyemma
Ask me questions.

Sooo, my favorite word is vexing which means annoying. My second favorite word is now tarradiddle which means a lie or fib.

If you had the chance to own a panda bear, would you?

If you keep looking towards the sky, eventually you will find you have flown away too..

This is just a quick update...Erica is needing the computer but I feel the need to.
Last night was a bad night and I realize how long has it been since I was happy.
I laugh plenty and have great times with friends but inside, it's rough...
What do i do?

There's going to be a party tonight

Dress shopping tomorrow! I found the perfect dress, now let's just hope it fits. :]
Mom got a job so now she is stressing about what to wear. She seems to like to wear all the same color. Like ALL pink or ALL black. I dunno. It's weird. I think that I will have to start putting the outfits together.
I now have a prom date. :] A pretty awesome one at the that.
I attempted to make a tunic/vest and hat like Link wears in Zelda but I failed miserably. He looked like Robin Hood. But! He still said yes. Lol.
People say love never fails. Is this so? Does it really carry on with a winning record?
Yeah. I think it does.
Bagh. I hate when plans change. Like, you want to hang out with people one night and they are like..how about tomorrow? But eh.

I was having a good day. Until you started talking.

WARNING: my friends randomly turn into dinosaurs.

You are the only one I love

Time is just a number passing on a clock

It's almost Friday and I should be sleeping.
Instead, I am writing an essay and watching My Name is Earl.
I'm hoping, since I know I'm going getting to bed unitl atleast one, that I'll hit the point of not being tired.

I'm way excited about tomorrow.
I just hope things go according to plan.

I need a new canvas board.
I also need polariod film.

Maybe, after saving up for my laptop, I can get a nice camera.
Speaking of camera, I REALLY need to upload pictures.
I need water.
If I can get enough energy, I'll go get some.

Everyone has this cool little knack.
But what's mine?
I do love to paint..